Saturday, March 5

Thoughts on Passions and Happiness

The resistance of passions, what will it bring? Happiness, peace, contentment?
If the mind is always running how can we catch it in the right place to bring forth the fruits of our thoughts?
We don't know if we can get to a place where we will be solvent or enlightened...whole and complete...
Most people are happy struggling along, living with pain and suffering looking for not the whole answer but partial answers to life...
We are not willing to "give it all up" in search of the true path or the right way. Therefore, we live as though there is a trade off of ups and downs which results in give and take and therefore we have instability. So the balance becomes the art and how we maintain our peace and sanity in the midst of the chaos is what differentiates the crazies from the peaceful. But then again aren't we all a bit crazy!
Lost in the world of our wants, needs, desires and so on?
SO what will bring us to a place of fulfillment? Do we need to let go entirely. Not each, not drink, not talk, not walk and so forth? Can we find this peace all the time or only sometimes and if it is sometimes is it only sometimes that we get it and sometimes we don't. Or do we have it all the time but have few tools to access it and experience it? If we were solvent, enlightened would we have needs, wants, desires or would the universe provide for us what it is that we need just because it knows what it is we need and provides like a mother to a child.
The answers cannot be found in the immediate but in the continuum of life. Coming and going, giving and taking...loving and hating, compassion and anger, the balance is somewhere in the middle. I pray to find it, I seek it, without it I am nothing, with it I am nothing. God give me peace!

Monday, February 28

Dear Mom

Dear Mom...

If only I could see you in heaven
You must be glowing with light
I am down here on earth and sometimes
I forget to let the light shine
I'll wallow in the darkness of my thoughts
Just to arrive in the peaceful waters
my very own sanity
I lose site of the goal, to be with you once more
then you show up for a moment, just enough to
see you're really there
Until once again I cannot access your presence
But you tell me you are still here, in my midst
with me, loving me the whole time
Can I be with you forever?
Lets catch up on all the time we have been apart
Though for me a day is forever, for you a year is but a blip
Shine you're light on me and give me your love
Show me you're there and let me hear your voice
Dear Mom won't you shine your light on me...

Conversation with a friend

how r u?

overall things are getting much better
i feel good
everyday I feel a little bit better
as I stick to what is important to me
and dig deeper into my lifes purpose

how about you?

i am fine

are you in touch with Jonny much?

Jonny?
sorry, can't remember who is Jonny
or Freddie?
he was the best man for Freddie's wedding
so whats new with you?
what are you up to these days?

ah, ok..i saw them lately
they r ok
not much new stuff
still think that things in my life can get better, and i am trying to make them good..so it's just a regular circle of life here
with ups and downs
and not to mention the country i live in

that seems to be a theme of life
for many people
have you begun writing the future of your life?

it has to be, u have life, don't just let it slip away

what will your legacy be?
what is important to you?
what matters?
etc.

no i didn't write amything so far i have it in my head
i just go step by step


how about if you begin to get it out into the world
and out of your head
do you think that would make a difference?

maybe, more like a reminder
to read what wroten every day
not bad idea
thax man
so u do that
write everthing down?

write it, read it, examine it, reflect on it, express it
otherwise the world cannot know that it exists
and thus it is all trapped inside of by being
crying inside of me to let it out
then I get sad and depressed
so it is better to sing it to the world
so the world can embrase me
as I am
where I am
however I am
then I will begin to see the light

nice
lucky you
seems like u have a clear vision of what u want and how your life supposed to be

its a work in progress, a practice more or less
sometimes we get stuck
in our thoughts
and that affects everything
actions are the same and so no progress or creativity is present
this is sufficating our very nature
though we think we are being natural much of the time
we are actually pretending
that we are truly living our life in a way that breathes life back into us so we can share it with others
we pretend because we forgot what we were like as children
free and happy
and then we make up stuff to cover up who we really and truly are
and we lose site of the truth
that we are on a voyage
playing a game
sharing a dance
with the universe
and we are the deciders

i enjoyed in these words very much
thanx again
it's meaningful
glad u r ok
and feeling like this
and yes it's true
we r the deciders
and we should never forget that

okay dear
thank you for connecting with me today
i enjoyed hearing from you

same here
take care
and hope our paths will cross somewhere
somehow
in future
to share a dance

ciao bello

ciao bella
I've enjoyed our encounter

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