Chase the world

I am not out to chase the world. The world will always be there until it won't anymore.
But rather to define myself within the world is where I stand and to define how my life will go is the key.
To do this firstly I must get clear on who I have been up until this point. Otherwise my efforts will likely to be rendered useless as what I would be doing is putting words and ideas on top of the created past.
This is similar to the parable to build a house on a shifting or unstable foundation. The sand as it were.
To do this will require a deep meditation...to clear and forgive the past for all that was and all that has been.
This will require an in depth analysis of who I have been, where I have gone, the lives I have been a part of, the regret I hold on to, the concerns I cyclically foster, the rewards I thought I wanted, the states of ignorance and the experiences of death of self.